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Pilcrow Ink May 2004

"No, I haven't heard anything `bout W.A.S.P.`s CD Neon God." March 6, 2004 ¶ Neon God Part I-The Rise actually became available in stores April 20, just a few weeks after various alternate Internet sites had predicted. It doesn't matter to me whose b-day it was on that day. ¶ The saying 'don`t believe everything you read' is verbatim for the information age. Things don't always seem to be what they look like is an understatement. For instance, after the circus papa-razzi exhausted America's curiosity about Janet's right breast as the grand finale of Super Bowl XXXVIII halftime procession, Janet's portrayal of a shy person on the Late Show took some convincing.

Nervous, irritated and disagreeable with the dialog, she said "You'll show them your big nick." with a smile.

During Dave's questioning, Janet was quite clear that she didn't want to comment about the situation that brought her to the forefront of popularity. A persistant talk show host pried to the point of using his audience as support for his tenet that people want to know. ¶ Nervous, irritated and disagreeable with the dialog, she said "You'll show them your big nick." with a smile. Big nick, big dick. All of this really came about when she pointed out Dave's badly peeling hangnails which sprouted beads of blood. God knows whether all of this might've led to AIDS if the topic of conversation progressed, but this was Janet's parting shot to an offer from Letterman to help and assist in any way possible to overcome this national humiliation. ¶ By nick, always the reader between the lines, I wondered how far off I'd be by suggesting

that all this might be involving one of my favorite photographers. And then, I went one step further and entertained the possibility that she might not be using the term NK as an acronym because who in their right mind wouldn't want to see NK on the Late Show! After all NKs been making movies since 1981. ¶ Jesse, an iconoclastic person in Part I of Neon God, the rise who discovers powers enabling him to manipulate people, is my interpretation of commentators predicting an increase in biblical stories for movie goers since Passion of the Christ. Personally, neon and fluorescent light fixtures strike fear in me as I've been enlightened to their exposure when tubes are broken and the radiation in them cause health problems. ¶ Jesse seems to have a Christ complex, but he imitates Janis Joplin in the song Why am I here quite convincingly (I don't think it's intentional.) There is more to this operatic metal album than meets the eye. The lyrics which contain Judah speaking to Jesse suggest reincarnation (or cloning) because Judah is the biblical name of one of the forefather's bloodline of David. ¶ Songs such as Wishing well, Sister Sadie, Asylum 9 are a bit grim because of innuendos to suicidal implications, but the good news is that this new CD only has one or two occurrences of profanity. ¶ Here are the names of the musicians performing in W.A.S.P. Blackie Lawless, Darrel Roberts, Mika Duda, Stet Howland, Frankie Banali.

WHY AM I HERE ¶ [Jesse to God] Oh tell me Lord, why am I here? / Lost in all our pain and sorrow / Are we to live in pain and fear? / Oh tell me Lord, why

am I here? ¶ WISHING WELL ¶ [Jesse to self] There's place where I'm / oh - with sorrowed lives / And all the souls / Oh - they're wishing they could die ¶ Take me down / And drown this the orphan forever / Ya know I do / Wish away the pain / And wash away my life / Find me down inside a shallow pool / Down a wishing well / No more bleeding / No more screaming tonight ¶ Wash away my pain / Oh - in the well of sighs / For I have no face - oh / Abandoned for all, for all time ¶ [Jesse thinking of his mother] Why, why am I nothing? / Oh mamma why, why'd you leave me / A throw away for life / Oh - oh why, why am I nothing / Oh and mamma why / Can you feel me there / Oh God I wanna die ¶ THE RISE ¶ [Jesse to the Invisible Circus] Welcome to my world / Of your imaginary king / I'll be your Messiah / You'll worship at my feet ¶ You'll read to your world / To disciples that I preach / Will ya, bow down before me and / Will you remember me? ¶ Take me / Change me / Love me / A crown of thorns on my heart ¶ Change me / Save me / Will you love me? / Forever nailed to your cross ¶ [Invisible Circus] Dying for you / [Jesse] Will I lie to thousands / [Invisible Circus] Our God is you / [Jesse] Am I deceit? / [Invisible Circus] Falling for you / [Jesse] I am the God man / [Invisible Circus] Our God is you / [Jesse] You're all at my feet ¶ WHAT I'LL NEVER FIND ¶ [Billy to Jesse] Time to go away / Down a road I cannot hide / Will I have no name/ for destiny's I cannot find / Will I wander alone / Forever's lonely road of time / Am I looking for what / I'll never find / Oh - can you hear me / Can you hear me in the night / Will you feel me / if you leave me if I cry? / Can you hear me

/ Can you feel me say goodbye / Did you call me name / I will be leaving from this dream / Can you feel the pain / Slowly leaving me / Will you hold my hand / And ease me to the other side / Am I looking for what / I'll never find / Oh - can you hear me / Can you hear me in the night / Will you feel me / if you leave me if I cry? / Can you hear me / Can you feel me say goodbye ¶ -Solo- ¶ Oh - am I looking for what / I'll never find ¶ Oh - can you hear me / Can you hear me in the night / Will you feel me / if you leave me / If I cry? / Can you hear me / Can you feel me / Say goodbye ¶ I'm all alone / [repeat 3x] ¶ X.T.C. RIDERS ¶ [Judah to Jesse] You'll be so far out of control / You'll be out of your mind / You'll feel nothing, it's taking a hold of you / Won't you leave all your pain behind ¶ XTC Riders, riders out of control / Get you higher, higher oh yeah / XTC Riders, riders / Ain't never going home / Oh, just let it ride ¶ You'll feel my X is taking control / You'll be numb and blind / Come kneel and pray for me, for a little while / To the neon God that's in your mind ¶ I'm your Messiah / Dresses all in black / Are you the chosen one? / I'll get you higher, no turning back / My neon son / Riding the XTC / Riding the XTC ¶ SISTER SADIE ¶ [Sister Sadie to Jesse] Strip off your things / And bow to your queen / And cleanse the sins of your life / Get on your knees / Gonna beg and bleed / No one hears you - you belong to me / Reaper of your sorrow's seed / Black habits tonight / Your only sin / Was coming into Sadie's life ¶ [Jesse to Sister Sadie] Sister of No Mercy please / I'm praying to die / Can I cleanse my orphan sins / And save my soul tonight ­ when ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God of love / I won't deceive / I don't conceive at all ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God above / I don't believe / I won't receive no more ¶ [Sister Sadie to Jesse] What I do to thee / Is

what was done to me / Sins of the fathers lives / And do you feel / There's a God for real / Ooh your only God is me ¶ [Jesse to Sister Sadie] Reaper of my sorrow's seed / And my screams in the night / My only sin was coming into Sadie's life / Sister of No Mercy please / I'm praying to die / Can I cleanse my orphan sins / And save my soul tonight ­ when ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God of love / I won't deceive / I don't conceive at all ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God above / I don't believe / I won't receive no more ¶ I'm fucked for life / Blind and tied nobody sees / I'm fucked for life / I'm the child no mother needs / I'm fucked for life / The cries of night for all Sadie's needs / I'm fucked for life / I'm the child nobody sees ¶ [Sister Sadie to Jesse] Oh you, I'll make you think you're dying / This room cleansing time again / I'll take you to this House of Sorrows / I'll break your Neon Heart of sin ¶ [Jesse to Sister Sadie] Oh are you mad / I'm

going fast / Habits in black / No coming back / No Mercy me / This Hell is real / Why me ya see / She's here killing me ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God of love / I won't deceive / I don't conceive at all ¶ I don't believe / I don't believe / In a God above / I don't believe / I won't receive no more ¶ WHY AM I NOTHING ¶ [Jesse to God] Why, why am I nothing, no more / Oh, why was I never / One worthy of Love / Oh why, why am I nothing to you / Tell me why, was I ever / Born in this World, here at all / Tell me why ¶ ASYLUM No. 9 ¶ [Doctor "D" to Jesse] Are you insane? Welcome to the Asylum / House of true enchanted minds / It's the happiest place on earth / For the violent / We almost lost ya / But we caught ya in time ¶ [The Nurses] You're here for life ­ life / [Doctor "D"] I'll fix ya right ­ right / [The Nurses] Gimme your life ­ life / [Doctor "D"] It's all you gotta do ¶ [The Nurses] I'll give you life ­ life / [Doctor "D"] I'll make it right - right / [The

Nurses] You're here for life ­ life / [Doctor "D"] I wanna welcome you ¶ [Doctor "D" to Jesse] Are you in pain / Or just merely misguided? / Tell me of the demons you've inside / I'll shrink where you think / Till you're fears are subsiding / I'm your physician slash / Magician of minds ¶ [The Nurses] Asylum number nine / [Doctor "D"] Oh ­ no running away / There ain't no place to hide / [The Nurses] Asylum number nine / [Doctor "D"] Oh ­ I'm your physician with a mission in mind / oh ­ I'm your healer I'm your stealer of minds ¶ [Jesse to Doctor "D"] I saw my father and me / No pain in the Well of Sighs / And I ­ I wanna die so I'm free / My Well where wishing dies. ¶ THE RED ROOM OF THE RISING SUN ¶ [Billy to Jesse] We are the lost of timeless / Hazes never found / We walk the new rays of the rising sun / In here's a heaven where no pain is found ¶ [Jesse to Billy] Take away the pain of life for me / Take me where I'm numb / Take me tripping to the light I see / With magic colors of the rising sun ¶ [Billy to Jesse] In here are the doors of blindness / Trails of rainbows round / Lost asylums of forgotten sons / Will you rise up will you touch your God. / The sky's slip into the rising seas / And drown your Neon One / Come touch the faces of the Gods you seek / In the Red Room of the Rising Sun ¶ [Jesse to Billy] Is there love to save me / Or just illusion / Is there none to claim me / Just delusion ¶ [Billy to Jesse] Open the doors to your mind / And hide in your dreams / The Red Room is laughing / The Red Sun is happy / Close the holes here inside / Don't believe all you think / The Red Sun is crying / The Red Room is rising / Hold on, hold on / Touch the faces of God and roll on / Into the Red Room / And free your Neon One ¶ Hold on, can you roll on / Fly the haze's along / Into the Rising Sun / And feel your Neon love ¶ Hold on, can you hold on / Oh ­ can you feel it shining / See it ris

ing with the sun ¶ Hold on, can you hold on / Oh ­ can you feel it shining / See it rising / With this love. ¶ SOMEONE TO LOVE ME ¶ Oh All I need was someone to love me / Oh, all I needed was one / There's no one who cares / Oh All I need was someone to love me / Oh, all I needed was one / There's no one who cares ¶ ME AND THE DEVIL ¶ Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil / Me and the Devil ¶ THE RUNNING MAN ¶ [Judah to Jesse] Do you know the ones you lost / You know, the ones you save ¶ [Jesse to Judah] Look in my eyes cause somehow you / You don't realize what I made ¶ [Judah to Jesse] You can't run away from me / Don't deny your blind believers / And hide your Devil's keeper ¶ [Jesse to Disciples] Take your love away from me / Cause I will blind your heathen reason / And ride us on your broken wings for love ¶ [Judah to Jesse] True we are disciples lost / You know the promise you made / Look in my eyes and tell me why / You realize the price that you'll pay? ¶ [Jesse] Number nine, number nine, number nine / I'm still inside of / The nine asylums / Am I Messiah? ¶ [Judah to Jesse] You're the only God they know ¶ What are you running from / Wasn't this enough / Aren't you satisfied? / They're all at your feet / The Lord to sheep / Oh, are you sanctified? ¶ [Jesse to Disciples] Take your love away from / Cause I will blind your heathen reason / And ride us on your broken wings for love ¶ THE RAGING STORM ¶ [Jesse to God] A storm is come / One war of sun and rain ­ within me / A raging storm / Lost crossroads thundering ­ in the wind / Dark and son / Who's the only one / To lay claim of me / Altars of store / Righteous temptations / Here at my feet ¶ Give me love / To rage in me can you see? / Only love / Is saving me / Give me love, oh love /

That rage in me ¶ It rages on / Of mourn and memories / In the wind / A warring storm / My soul is bargaining ­ in the end / Is there no sun? / With only love in vain ­ and it's pain / Hear me oh lord / Come cleanse me evermore with / Your blood of rain ¶ Holy war for my soul / Scars of memories remain / Oh, tell me why am I hear / Storms of crossroads and rage.¶Ten years ago, around this time, the top films making money in theaters were The lion king, Forrest Gump, Wolf, The client, Maverick, True Lies, Speed, Clear and present danger, The Flintstones and The mask. Someone asked me if after having seen Passion of the Christ, whether or not I was motivated to look up a few passages from the bible and read them for myself. I said no, but that was awhile back, and now I say yes. I couldn't find anything I was looking for, and I'm almost certain there is something in the bible where Mary washes Jesus' feet with her tears. ¶ What does it all mean? It's my opinion, that when the television finally airs it, with all it's editing "to fit my screen" and what not, people are going to be flabbergasted at the way in which the network syndicates stamp their logo as an overlaying to identify their station [while the film is currently running.] ¶ For a picture to the front cover go here. For those into numerology and banner ads go to 666. Live web cams have always been fun and I have links to several. First, the corner of Franklin (I believe) in Hollywood, next the infamous Hollywood sign, lastly, on weekdays only, the streets of LA. ¶ Bored? Read me. I never got around to figuring what this site was about. Why don't you visit it and write me about it. Are you into Wicca ? I think you'll find this interesting.

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